People piss me off, but it’s all good in the end, first quarter is almost done
Point me to the road, and I’mma run it
Bloodhound with my nose to the money
Ain’t fucking with these hoes,
Getting duckets ‘til I die, while my foes busy running
Fuck it, marijuana smoke in my stomach, toasted in public
Head in the clouds and my toes in the struggle
Like who didn’t test yet? Test this
There’s a few new rules in effect, bitch
I always find myself more at home when it rains,
smokey rooms and ashtrays, mirror the weather.
I am not capping myself but truly leaving, what I have experienced in the last year tells me that is for the best. More so in the past two months alone. While home I have done my fair share of lung, liver and love damage. I have seen women that need saints and that need sin, I have rejected friends and turned rather to easy escapes, drinking, drugs and careless sex and have come to realize what “it” (meaning life) is all about. I leave South Carolina to have surgery on Jan 20th. After that is all taken care of I am going to the state I hate to love, my least favorite that still provides some sort of vacation or get away from this fucking place. If you really know me you know where it is. Then it is off to Asheville with a great aunt of mine who teaches college english, hopefully I’ll work on some writing and myself. But this should be about you keeds,
First I will say there is no such thing as hell but there is real evil. To my guy friends I say find a beneficial girl not a superficial or negative one (common sense you would think). To my girl friends, see if a guy will look in your eyes for an hour and not be bored with just talking, y’all girls need to expect respect and romance not this fuckery. I have found it way to easy to hit the sack with a girl in the past two months which should not be the case since I look like a fucking short neanderthal’s child with Joaquin Phoenix from his documentary I’m Still Here. I have seen good money, smoke and drink and I can tell you it really doesn’t get you anywhere but further along the calendar. Back to women, yall need to expect a lot from guys but more importantly of yourselves, Ive always fancied the “Independent” type but have found it a facade or a strong defense mechanism. Don’t ever let a man define you as a “housewife” unless that is what you want. Also don’t run from love. Mentioning that, it is something I am told too often and “I love you” may be felt but none of my girlfriends have really been “in love” with me, when love does come, accept it for what it is, don’t glorify it. “I love you” was worn thin to me a long time ago and abused in a way but we all learn our lessons. After Asheville I intend to head to Colorado, and since “I’m on the wagon” and won’t be 21 it looks like it will be a good ole sober trip minus a cigar but who the fuck is counting? Next I would like to say moderation in moderation, have your fun and your work and be completely consumed by neither, don’t go too hard for something especially just for material gain. Don’t do anything (when it comes to work) for anyone else. I should be done in Colorado come august, then it is between New York, Tejas or Arkansas, I will only have a crap phone of which my family has the number, and will not return to tumblr as Idiosyncraticvernacular. I am now also deleting my twitter, Facebook and sadly will most likely stop with IG. To my RL honkeys I hope you all succeed and to see you again, perhaps 2015 or 2020 or the next life, who knows. We are all here t learn. My last piece of advice to anyone is this, regardless of anyone’s race, religion, gender, economic status, social standing, celebrity, height, weight, etc, speak to them as you would speak to yourself as a stranger.
P.S. Johnny, your camera is in the backseat of my car, it is unlocked.